Well...it has been a very tumultuous week -- to say the least. I have made the conscious decision to take my life into my own hands and hopefully I can keep a handle on it this time. It has been said "hold on loosely but don't let go" and that is precisely what I am planning on doing. After another terrible "breakup" and struggle with a physical ailment, I have realized the value of myself. Or rather, I have begun to realize the value of myself. I am starting to understand that taking care of myself isn't being selfish at all -- rather it is making things for myself and everyone around me. In an attempt to take my life back (and weed out the parts I no longer need) I have chopped off the hair I've been growing for the past 2 years. It is a physical representation of an internal shedding of dead skin. Skin that has been touched (and burned) by the relationships I've had the past few years. It is a realization that I am so much more than I've been letting on. It is in the most basal sense A NEW ME! I am working on other things as well. I'm learning how to crochet, I am getting my ass back into shape, and I'm bound and determined to start dating again. I mean really dating...with the intent to find someone. But this must wait until I have found myself. I only hope the road to myself is short and relatively well lit.
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